Wednesday, July 8, 2009 8:43 PM		I know I'm pretty weird for the very reason of not wanting to be committed.. Not wanting to be in a relationship.. Not wanting to have that someone I'd share my life with.. Not the typical girl of my age I should say.. I could not totally define nor describe how and why I ended up in such a state of mind.. But somehow, I do feel that it's for the best.. I knew how to love.. And when I did, I always gave it my best.. No room for shortcomings.. No room for wrongdoings.. No room for any single regret.. The sad part is, I still found myself losing in the end.. I gravely hated the feeling for it makes someone so vulnerable and susceptible to excruciating pain.. A pain which was desperately incurable.. A pain which was inevitably irrevocable.. Thus, in loving.. You get to gamble losing two immensely significant things.. Losing yourself or losing that someone you'd dreamed spending your whole life with.. And what's left of you once such mishaps occur? A badly wounded, shattered and lamenting frail heart.. To trust is to be deceived.. To love is to be taken advantage of.. So why risk yourself for something intangible yet so uncertain? Guess, I just got tired of everything.. Tired of having to bleed and mend this profoundly wailing heart.. Now, nothing has been left to give.. comment (0)

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