Thursday, July 9, 2009 11:54 PM		IT'S COMPLICATED..! Argh..! I really hate it whenever I get myself engulfed in such a scenario.. A scenario which more often than not entails a painstaking test of my integrity.. A certain scenario wherein I need to keenly weigh things down.. Will it be to go with my mind or to follow this heart.. To be happy for others' sorrow or to take the grief for someone else's happiness.. Words could never totally describe how tormenting this is for me.. For some reasons, I had to admit I do find myself happy, loved and being cared for.. And that in my own little ways I'm trying my best to return the favor to that someone though I may not be giving the same ounce of love he has ever bestowed upon me.. Day by day, he assures me how dearly significant I am to him.. How I make his day whole and make his life all worthwhile.. That he longs for me.. That he's willing to depart himself from everything he has just to be with me.. Before all of these came to the surface, this guy has been a friend.. And if I would be given the liberty to choose.. I'd opt to have it that way.. I've been amidst this kind of situation for quite a handful of times now.. In some cases, I've braved the risks and fought for whatever it takes.. Only to find out that it poured on more tears than that of laughter.. And thus, I never win! It just makes life even unbearable.. Couldn't this life just give me a chance to love and be loved without any complications at hand?! But if there's something this guy has not known.. It's this unexplainable feeling that draws me close to him.. That in one way or another, I am already loving the feeling.. That in one way or another, I'm already somewhat starting to be attached.. That in one way or another, I know life would be way different without him.. comment (3)

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